Anger

Today I discovered I have anger issues.  No one likes to admit that they hold on to negative emotion especially one as damaging as anger.   My anger is not the rage out kind of anger but a hurt anger of unfairness.  Not only is this hurting anger long lived within me but it is also hidden deep under layers and layers of heart wall.  When thinking and pondering the heart of the issue my mind drew such an blank.  An empty void of what and why and how.  I am thankful for in tune healers that can push me in my healing process and access such a hidden truth that is holding me back from feeling so much love and enjoyment in life.  Healing hurts, but it also feels so good.  I was also reminded that this journey is not about what I can do for others, or my own healing, it is about "US" healing together.  I got to eat every word I have spoken to others the last few weeks and have them given back to me.  I have been able to share my experience and have a dear sister join me on my healing path.  I have experienced the unity of all moving forward together and the closeness one feels from being lifted.  

Today I am full of gratitude.  Gratitude for anger.  Gratitude for love.  Gratitude for the love that can replace anger and hurt.