Love Hate Relationship.

I was reminded today that I live in an environment of a Love Hate relationship with myself, and it needs to change.  Change is always hard especially the acceptance that change needs to happen.  I have been an Empath my whole life and during a time in my life by necessity it was heightened.  Well, I proceeded to have serious anxiety and moderate depression for over a decade due to that heightened gift/curse.  Ever since the birth of my oldest son and the "turning my gift off" I have not only lived without anxiety and depression by I have also lived in fear of my "gift/curse" returning and not being strong enough to channel it in a way that keeps it a gift and gift only.  ​​

In my pondering and coming some self realization I created this image.  This finger paining I did a couple years ago shows the bottom circle the wall I had built around my gift to keep me protected and "safe".  The white light inside gradually become bigger and is able to encompass the walls of protection and break down the borders.  Wow! This concept was life changing to me and I loved the new freedom I thought I had received from it.  However, it sorta stoped there.  It sounded awesome and amazing and logically I knew that it was possible and that this was exactly what I was looking for to be able to develop what it is I do to help people and not be overwhelmed by my senses.  I was reminded today that I had forgotten the most important step of this self revelation.  FEAR!  I forgot that there are always emotions involved and in this case strong one.  I had such hope of developing my gift as a gift and allowing the light inside or the LOVE of God within me that I am able to share with others that I forgot to allow that same light and LOVE to replace that fear and the darkness that those walls surrounded me with.  We can't love and have complete faith if there is fear in our hearts.  "Perfect love casteth out all fear." Moro. 8:16.  If there is any fear left it simply means I have more to do to perfect my Love and release all emotional residue of fear.

It sucks that fear has to be so crippling.  It is no fun to be our own source of obstacles that hold us back.  Fear keeps us standing in our own way when it comes to creating life of abundance and joy.  We need more live around us, more joy and more abundance and much, much less fear.  

So perfect the Love of God in your life and watch as it casteth out all fear.  Watch miracles take action and change your life.  Watch as that Love that God has for you and that you can then share with the world encompasses the walls that stand in your way keeping you from the life you want to be living.

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